Tough

It’s been a tough week. Not an impossible week, but with a lot going on in the world, it felt very heavy all week. Plus there are all the things that happen when you have to spend your life as an adult. My life usually isn’t traumatic, and it wasn’t truly that bad compared to things happening on the other side of the world, but I didn’t feel much like I won the week.

My allergies were beyond awful this past week. As I have gotten older, my fall allergies are kicking the crap out of me. It used to be spring, but things have shifted. I was wheezing, coughing and just all around miserable. I made it, living life with my friends Mucinex, Claritin and Flonase. But I sounded like I was smoking non-filter cigs and chasing them with Wild Turkey. Which is unfair, as I am roaming through Sober October, so no Kickin’ Chicken for me. But it took the wind out of my sails all week. Low energy and low output. I made it through my workouts, but I wasn’t loving it like normal. I am feeling better this weekend, but it was a dumb way to spend my week.

My sports teams are hurting me. Now, this is truly insignificant and I know that. But the Brewers just limped right out of the playoffs, at home, and didn’t even look remotely like they belonged there. I posted something to the effect of being in a long term abusive relationship with them. I do love them, but they have just underwhelmed me throughout our time together. They know I will never leave them, so they just keep up their shenanigans. I am taking a break from them until Spring Training.

I told myself as the Packers season was starting that I will not be upset this season while they go through their growing pains and adjust to a new starting QB. I may have lied. I am trying to be patient, but they are just making me sad. I reason with myself, that we have had it so good for 30 years, and teams hit rough patches. I know we will be ok, but it is just tough. They played Monday night, and it was just so awful. I stayed up past my bedtime while not feeling great, and they just stepped on my heart. I will be ok, it’s the bye week, so I have time to adjust. But I know my friends are worried about me, so I just want them to know, I am still all GO PACK GO. I promise.

Now, there are things that really do matter, that have been weighing on my mind. I have been watching some of the coverage out of Israel, and that is tough to take in. What happens there affects us here, as we are a human race sharing a planet. I do not understand how people can do these things to each other, it is something I have never been able to grasp. In my nearly 54 years, war is something I can’t wrap my head around. The atrocities, the massacre, and the disregard of the human life is just awful. Please know that I have said so many prayers for all of it, and it is something I am trying to understand. We should treat each other better on this planet. Whatever your faith is, I respect your right to have that, I do not have to believe the same things you do to respect you as a human being.

To round out a heavy week, I learned this morning that a high school classmate passed away yesterday. She has been fighting for a long time. We were not close, but I knew of her struggles the past few years, and I am sad that she had to endure so much for so long. She can rest now, and her family and friends who looked after her and each other can have some peace as well, I truly and sincerely hope.

There are a lot of people that are given more than they should have to handle in life. I have had times when that happened, but this past week was not one of them. It was just a little tough. I try to be optimistic, be a source of happiness for myself and others. This week was a bump, not a real struggle. I know that, and I am thankful for the tougher week, it makes me appreciate the good weeks and days so much more. I am a lucky soul, and I know that. It’s easy to slip into the “why me” attitude, but it is truly tough to get out of it once you live there for a while. I choose not to do that, if I can help it. My days are mine to live, and I hope I am making the best of them as I go along. When a tough one comes along, get through it and keep a good attitude.

Sending out good vibes and prayers to those that need them. I hope you all do the same, and live with love in your heart.